The neighbourhood Christmas party was Friday and I wore a new tight fitting sparkly red sweater with blue jeans. I liked the sweater but perhaps it makes my shoulders look too big. Anyway everyone seemed very nice and I was ensconced with the girls for the evening. A certain point the men left to watch the a hockey game in the den. I had little contact with the guys (likely make them uncomfortable) but I was addressed by my new name and I felt no negative vibes.
I almost didn't go as I had gotten very upset earlier over issues around separation and came close to ruining my make up by crying.
The trip to see old friends east of the city went well too. Once I pulled into their driveway all my nervousness kicked in and I reluctantly followed a minute or two behind the rest of the family family. Conservatively dressed, jeans black t shirt and a leopard print cardigan. I don't think I looked my best as I had gotten so little sleep the night before.
I was initially rather standoffish as there was a misunderstanding regarding a comment about my appearance. Once that was cleared up and "P" and I went out to look at his new restoration (Austin Westminster) it seemed like old times.
I really appreciated their effort to remember to call me April and to use the right pronouns.
The children played and we had a great dinner and as usual we parted wishing we lived closer to each other. I felt very comfortable with my old (no I am not calling them old…in joke) friends and I pray we can all still be friends after the separation.
Some late rockabilly as it morphs into surf, the Paragons with their instrumental Scramble:
I normally view your blog on a reader so was surprised to see that your counter says 61 days - time flies.
ReplyDeleteWhilst I understand that you started on this process understanding the costs you would need to pay, I am still saddened that there is an impending seperation. I suppose I always wish that people can find a way to stay together but I know that's often unrealistic - we change so much. I understand that the sadness will take time to leave you but I hope that you can focus on the positives and not dwell on images from the past.
On much more positive note - I think you look fabulous.
Becca
I can only echo Becca's comment. And, as she said, you do look fabulous.
ReplyDeleteYou look great and are so brave!
ReplyDeleteYou look fantastic!
ReplyDeleteLove Scramble too!
wowzers! looking awesome!
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