A strange week that seems to have slipped by far too fast. So much to do and even when not working full time I seem to have so little of it. Being a "mom" and home maker is also proving to take its toll on my working hours.
Emotionally up and down but no serious depression and I damn well hope it does not return.
Met with two girl friends this week one for lunch the other for coffee. Each is at different stages of their transition just behind me….wow suddenly I am the experienced one, what the heck happened.
Transition is a gift (a life saving one) but it is not cheap. No I am not talking about the not insubstantial cost of surgery…SRS…FFS…implants but the emotional, the relationships, jobs etc.
It is finally hitting me that "his" life is over and that the most important relationship is forever changed and finite. I knew it all along in my head but not my heart, I have the taste of ashes in my mouth.
It would make sense to play Bruce's the Price You Pay but that so so depressing I want to open a vein. No offence to his fans I am one too. Here is another tune with a slightly more upbeat sound if not message.
PS. Photo is me singing along....thank God this is not a VLOG.
Well while we are on a Bruce kick:
Tougher than the rest…the road is dark…
Now this is more my speed:
Open all night featuring a guy driving a first generation Cadillac Seville:
Hugs,
April
Bruce: the cure for whatever ails ya. :c)
ReplyDeleteOh I thought you were asleep with your mouth open! Joking!
ReplyDeleteI'll have to pass on any track by Bruce Springsteen thanks!
Your line ' I knew it all along in my head but not my heart, I have the taste of ashes in my mouth.'
ReplyDeleteThose words touched me - I wish that it could be different.
Becca
I have nothing profound to say. And you don't need it anyway. All I would like to say is I think that is a cool picture of you and you might want to listen to (in order): SHE'S THE ONE, BADLANDS and BORN TO RUN. I have "sprung the cages on Highway 9" and have been to the "Palace" (in Asbury Park).
ReplyDeleteStay strong. Stay true. Stay You.
Karin