Wednesday 24 December 2014

Zombie Christmas Time....its the most wonderful time of the year. Relationships as a woman are complicated, I know it sounds stupid when I write it. I don't think I expected smooth sledding (how is that for a Canadianism). In fact I didn't expect to have any relationships at all.


Relationships as a woman are complicated, I know it sounds stupid when I write it. I don't think I expected smooth sledding (how is that for a Canadianism). In fact I didn't expect to have any relationships at all.

Simply living as who I was supposed to be was enough for me. But secretly I hoped that I would be able to find someone to spend my new life with.

I have been lucky to have a choice of dates but it seems that all too often I am attracted to people who aren't attracted to me and vice versa.  I connected with the Vette driving doctor who broke my heart at Halloween and a few brief texts cast be back into despair. I expected the black wave of depression to wash over me at Christmas, it came a little early.

I had a really tough Monday, long dark night of the soul and all that rot, took a sleeping pill to quiet my mind. Well I'm still here, like Rocky, ready to take more punches, too stupid to know when to quit.    

It's not that I'm strong I just have some true friends.

a room with a view, photo above is me trying to do my best forties movie star look 
Merry Christmas to all my trans brothers and sisters out there, the bravest of the brave, the ones that never give up and keep on reaching for the stars when we are sitting on our asses in the mud.

2015 is ours for the taking, or in lieu of perhaps just a small south American country

Love you all.

enjoy some zombie Christmas cheer from the Dollyrots:





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2 comments:

  1. Cassidy24 December 2014 at 13:47

    As I've noted many times, you vastly underestimate yourself, Miss April. You *are* strong. And brave, and resilient. I only wish you could see yourself the way I, and others, see you: smart, funny, kind, sweet, and lovely, inside and out. Your friends reflect who you are, sweet girl.

    May your Christmas be filled with light, love, and zombies. (Not necessarily in that order.) And let's make 2015 the year we kick ass. And I say we think big; to heck with a small country - next year, we take Paris. Last one there has to buy the cafe au laits...

    Love you, sweetie...

    Hugs,
    Cass

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  2. Jenna25 December 2014 at 02:40

    Merry Christmas April

    If your dates don't find a beautiful, interesting, strong, brave woman attractive then that's your problem. There is someone out there that does. You just haven't met them yet. Perhaps they are living in that small country.

    I like Cass' idea of taking over France. Not saying that us people in the UK have had our issues with them but it would be good to take over the country and put it to some use. Plus they have some rather nice wines :-)

    Hope 2015 brings you everything you wish, although maybe not the Zombie Apocalypse.

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