What a miserable day, that started with such promise. Over the holidays I had been preparing, researching and honing my interview skills for a senior marketing position with a company near me.
The job description was near to perfect (without involving cars) as I could have wished, the commute short and the pay great. I was sought out by a headhunter, as the position was not publicly advertised.
This was my express ticket back to the corporate world.
All signs were good! The job would have cut the Gordian knot of my life and solved multiple problems….so I should have known I wouldn’t get it.
I dressed conservatively but well, hair done and as far as I know passing with flying colors. According to headhunter and my own appraisal of the one on one with the president I aced the interview with my “winning personality” but fell short when it came to manufacturing industry experience.
Got the call I didn’t make it. I knew that I would be depressed if I didn’t win the position but wow. …gutted, as you’ll in England say. Vile depression rushed into the void left by hope. I felt like this was my last chance at a normal life. All I want is to hide in my room and cry, pathetic.
It has been a challenge to keep functioning but I have other responsibilities and must continue. Sorry to be a downer but writing about such events does take some of their power away and even inject a little perspective.
Damn I'm so sorry. Sounds like the perfect job. Yeah it's amazing the way life continues whether you want it to or not.
ReplyDeleteSmall comfort but the fact that the headhunter looked for you specifically suggests more than a little faith in you and your abilities.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry you didnt get the role
I'm with Becca here, to be put forward in the first place you're doing something right. There *will* be others!
ReplyDeleteSo, so sorry, hon. You don't deserve this. I totally agree with Becca and Jenny; the fact that a headhunter sought you out is VERY promising. Most jobs are unadvertised, and recruiters know about many of them.
ReplyDeleteAnd it is hardly pathetic to want to cry after such a letdown. It's perfectly normal. You need the physical and emotional release. I struggle with this myself, but it's healthy, and part of the healing process.
DON'T GIVE UP! You're on the right track, and you're far stronger than you give yourself credit for. People want to help; let them. You would do the same.
Take care of yourself, sweets!
Hugs,
Cass