Awfully tough two days that saw me back to being seriously depressed and utterly without hope. I wanted it to be over, the struggle to put one foot in front of the other seemed unbearable. Another year of being unemployed too shameful to face.
I love the television show Mad Men, it was so sad when last season the British character Lane commits suicide, his first attempt foiled by a Jaguar that refuses to start despite his best efforts to correct the problem. It occurred to me that morning that I had a Jaguar in the garage too and one that would start.
A close friend came by and we talked most of the afternoon away. We are not ourselves when depressed and can do things that we might not have the opportunity to regret.
The next day we talked more and I spoke with a close friend and blogger here on T Central. By the end of the day I was back to my "normal" self.
Thanks to my friends both near and far for being there for me.
So, so happy you're feeling better, hon. I have no doubt those friends know you would do the same for them.
ReplyDeleteThings WILL get better. And you will be ready when they do. Because you have far more strength and courage than you realize.
Be well, sweetie.
Hugs,
Cass
April,
ReplyDeleteGlad you had some friends you could talk to while you feeling so low.
As Cass said, things will improve. Hang in there.
Depression isn't fun but there's lots of us out here if you need to talk to us when you're feeling that bad and need help to get through those periods.
Take care hun
Jenna
It's so good to have friends you can talk to, April. Friends who genuinely care about you. Friends who can look you in the eye and see the pain. I feel so bad for some of my sisters who are isolated and just don't have that like-minded friend who can stop by and share tears.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you're feeling better.
Calie xx
We all need friends, even if we think we don't. I'm glad you have people you can talk too. And I agree with the others, things will improve, I know you can't see it now but they will.
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